“Rainbow” was the first song I wrote for this record. I was in rehab for my eating disorder. I was sitting on the floor, and I had begged the head of the rehab to let me have a keyboard for one hour a day, and finally she relented. And for that one hour a day I played and wrote “Rainbow.” “Rainbow” was just my promise, my letter to myself that things would get better. It was my mantra, because at the end of a storm comes a rainbow.
Kesha has encountered far more than her fair share of darkness over the past few years, from surviving sexual and emotional abuse, and being trapped in the ongoing related lawsuits, to recovering from an eating disorder that almost took her life. On Rainbow, her latest album, she emerges hopeful and strong, a survivor and a warrior. It’s radiant and triumphant, while being raw and authentic. She sings of self love and recovery being possible. She said to Rolling Stone:
I made a record I’m extremely proud of, from the bottom of my guts – I excavated the most gnarly lyrics that were so difficult for me. And people still like it! It’s really beautiful, and it’s very healing. I feel like I’m being seen for what I actually am, and people are OK with it.”
This song is super special to me, because it really helped me through the worst of my depression. I actually had to have quite a few goes at recording this one because it means so much to me, and I really wanted to do it justice. My SPD being so heightened at the moment impacts my ability to multitask – so playing and singing is trickier than usual, and I feel like I’m not performing at my best! But this is my best for now 🙂 I am trying to let go of perfection and just keep at it!! And I’m so glad to share this beautiful song with you 🙂