Rainbow

This week's mental health session is "Rainbow" by Kesha, a powerful, hopeful song about overcoming trauma. Click through to watch the video, and read about how writing Rainbow helped Kesha to recover from an eating disorder, and heal from trauma.

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This week’s Mental Health Session is “Rainbow” by Kesha, a powerful song about overcoming trauma. I love the story behind this song, which Kesha shares in this track-by-track interview:

“Rainbow” was the first song I wrote for this record. I was in rehab for my eating disorder. I was sitting on the floor, and I had begged the head of the rehab to let me have a keyboard for one hour a day, and finally she relented. And for that one hour a day I played and wrote “Rainbow.” “Rainbow” was just my promise, my letter to myself that things would get better. It was my mantra, because at the end of a storm comes a rainbow.

Kesha has encountered far more than her fair share of darkness over the past few years, from surviving sexual and emotional abuse, and being trapped in the ongoing related lawsuits, to recovering from an eating disorder that almost took her life. On Rainbow, her latest album, she emerges hopeful and strong, a survivor and a warrior. It’s radiant and triumphant, while being raw and authentic. She sings of self love and recovery being possible. She said to Rolling Stone:

I made a record I’m extremely proud of, from the bottom of my guts – I excavated the most gnarly lyrics that were so difficult for me. And people still like it! It’s really beautiful, and it’s very healing. I feel like I’m being seen for what I actually am, and people are OK with it.”

This song is super special to me, because it really helped me through the worst of my depression. I actually had to have quite a few goes at recording this one because it means so much to me, and I really wanted to do it justice. My SPD being so heightened at the moment impacts my ability to multitask – so playing and singing is trickier than usual, and I feel like I’m not performing at my best! But this is my best for now 🙂 I am trying to let go of perfection and just keep at it!! And I’m so glad to share this beautiful song with you 🙂

Lyrics:

I used to live in the darkness
Dress in black, act so heartless, but now
I see that colors are everything
Got kaleidoscopes in my hairdo
Got back the stars in my eyes, too, yeah now
I see the magic inside of me
Yeah, maybe my head’s fucked up
But I’m falling right back in love with being alive
Dreaming in light, light, lights
This kitty cat lost her mind
Been lookin’ for a star-sent sign that I’ll be alright
Look to the skies
I’ve found a rainbow, rainbow, baby
Trust me, I know, life is scary
But just put those colors on, girl
Come and play along with me tonight
I’d forgot how to daydream
So consumed with the wrong things, but in
The dark, I realized this life is short
And deep down, I’m still a child
Playful eyes, wide and wild, I can’t
Lose hope, what’s left of my heart’s still made of gold
And I know that I’m still fucked up
But aren’t we all, my love?
Darling, our scars make us who we are, are
So when the winds are howling strong
And you think you can’t go on, hold tight, sweetheart
You’ll find a rainbow, rainbow, baby
Trust me, I know life is scary
But just put those colors on, girl
Come and play along with me tonight
You gotta learn to let go, put the past behind you
Trust me, I know, the ghosts will try to find you
But just put those colors on, girl
Come and paint the world with me tonight
Night, night, night, night, night
I found a rainbow, rainbow, baby
Trust me, I know life is scary
But just put those colors on, girl
You gotta learn to let go, put the past behind you
Trust me, I know, the ghosts will try to find you
But just put those colors on, girl
Come and paint the world with me tonight
Oh, put those colors on, girl
Come and paint the world with me tonight
Come and paint the world with me tonight

 

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